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East Egg: Or How I Became a Husband

(The new virgin queen of East Egg, August 2018)

 

I picked up my first hive late in the evening. East Egg came from a Randy Oliver nucleus, or mini-colony, bred for both mite resistance and gentle disposition. I’d put my order in months earlier, the day that Trump was elected, an act I didn’t realize then as defiance. That I’d support matriarchy in any way I could, including a colony of bees.

What I wanted then was solace. I also wanted distraction. I wanted to fulfill a lifelong goal of keeping bees. I’d always wanted bees, but my ex husband had been resistant. But he was gone–he’d left me, and with that went any excuses I had for not allowing myself the space to which I deserved.

Even then, it took me a couple years to do the research, take the classes, and order the bees so I could be well prepared to husband a hive.

The word “husband,” first recorded around the year 1000, originally meant “male head of household,” whether married, single, or widowed. “Husband” didn’t mean a married man until the year 1290. In that same year, the word “husbandry” came into being as a noun for “management of a household and its resources.” In the 1300s, the word “husbandman” came to mean a farmer or tiller of the soil–so the word “husbandry” expanded to mean farming and agriculture in general.

So here I was, for the first time in my life, husbanding. Husbanding myself. Husbanding the household. And husbanding chickens and now bees.

I was no longer a wife. And I no longer wanted to be a wife ever again.

I was going to be a husband.

The box of bees was sealed shut when I picked it up. It buzzed. It was full of life. Heavy. We carried it carefully–CAREFULLY–into the car, and drove it carefully–CAREFULLY–home. And we placed it on a hive stand. We unsealed it. We walked away.

The next morning, I couldn’t help but peek in. I lifted the cover off the box. There they were–five frames of bees, surrounded by an additional five empty frames that the bees would fill with more brood (baby bees), honey, and pollen in the coming weeks and months. I named it East Egg. It grew. It produced honey. It kept mite counts below 6 throughout the year, without any intervention or treatment. It was so strong going into the winter later that year, that it emerged this Spring with a catastrophic mite count of 46–it had robbed a bunch of hives and brought home mites.

I treated it with an organic treatment. And the mite counts dropped again. I cherished its magnificent queen. Took pictures of her whenever I spotted her. Sometimes the bees stung me–and while I suffered from large localized reactions, I didn’t really much care. I loved what that hive meant to me, and I kept at beekeeping. I was a husband.

I was helping bees grow and prosper. I was learning about the different roles of the female workers–how they start as nurse bees, move to cleaning the hive and caring for the queen, then move to guarding the hive, until the final phase of foraging. How tidy–that the last stage of work took them out of the hive, where most of them would end up dying.

The few males–the drones–I ignored. They didn’t sting. They were there to serve the purpose of passing the genetics of the hive on. Nothing more. Every time I talked about bees or opened up the hive, any worry I had–dissipated.

When the apple trees blossom around the Spring equinox–bees are prime to swarm. Swarming is a way of reproducing, as half the hive leaves with the queen to a new home. The remaining bees raise their own queen from the eggs left behind. But in the city, you don’t want to do this. To be more exact, your neighbors would not appreciate you doing this.

And also–why let your bees swarm when you can create an artificial swarm (a split) and make sure to give them a good home?

I split East Egg. In other words, I took a few frames out of East Egg (two frames of capped brood, one frame of eggs, one frame of honey, and the rest empty frames) and put them into a new box, and thus a new hive. This split had bees and eggs and capped larvae–and no queen.

Without a queen, the worker bees made a queen from the eggs. East Egg now had an offspring of sorts, and the queen of East Egg, a daughter. She was a rare ebony colored queen. I named the new hive split Bree, and she went to live in Sonoma County.

But then–tragedy. East Egg started to dwindle. It had been a very very healthy and large colony until May. Five boxes tall! A full box of honey going into Summer.

 

But somehow, East Egg never capped the honey. I was so busy with other hives and a rare vacation to Hawaii, that I neglected to go down into the deep box to double check brood–even after I didn’t spot any eggs in the second box.

Something happened to the queen right after the split. I know this now, because I made a chart of the hives I managed this year, according to their growth. You see, East Egg started taking a dive after I made Bree in April. But I didn’t notice.

I saw the queen, but didn’t notice anything wrong–and because she was alive, I figured all was okay. Here she is, on May 27, post-split.

Doesn’t she look okay? Right?  Look closer. There’s a mite on her shoulder.  I remember making a note to check her again the next time I opened up the hive.

By now, she’s stopped laying–reading my notes now, I know.

 

 

You see, bees normally supersede a failing queen. I often call my bee colonies “The Borg,” because they work as a cohesive unit. The queen is beholden to the workers, and the workers are beholden to the queen. The worker bees build a queen cup if they sense something wrong. They raise their own queen. And the queen usually lets that happen, knowing her own demise. But not this queen. She tore apart every queen cup.

She didn’t let them make another queen–and so I thought all was okay. But in June (June 16 to be exact), I took a closer look. There she is, the queen. Looking injured–see her peeling thorax?

 

In the end, I had to kill the queen, when I saw how injured she was. It was awful. Later, someone asked if I’d preserved her–dunked her in some alcohol. And if I ever have to kill another queen bee, I’ll do that. But no. I stepped on her in an inglorious end.

Out of loss and setback comes opportunity.

So I decided to use this as an opportunity to purchase a Randy Oliver queen.

I bought a Randy Oliver queen. Placed her in the hive where the candy plug would be eaten away in a few days. The candy plug never got eaten away by the workers. Strange. I called my mentor, and she said to go ahead and remove the candy plug. I did. And the bees? They killed her.

I had no idea at the time, but the hive had laying workers. At the time, I thought the queen was newly injured just a week or so earlier. I thought the queen had only recently stopped laying eggs. (A queen can lay about 1500 eggs/day). But in hindsight, she had stopped laying in May.

Laying worker is when a hive goes queen-less for long enough (3 weeks or longer), the worker bees themselves start laying eggs. They do this, because they do not smell queen pheromone, and they do not smell egg pheromone.

The eggs laying workers lay are unfertilized, so they are haploid, and become drones. In a sense, this is the way a dying hive still sends off its genetics into the world. The brood pattern is uneven and spotty, unlike when a queen lays–she lays in a solid swath of eggs.

And so for the next 6 weeks, I put in a frame of eggs from another hive, hoping that the smell of fresh eggs would suppress the laying worker situation.

 

East Egg persisted. I inserted frame after frame of eggs from Tangerine Hive each week. I think I put in a total of 8 frames of eggs over six weeks. (Tangerine Hive, meanwhile, had a gorgeous queen that was a laying machine).

It persisted. Like, nose above water, persisted. It got invaded by wax moths. I took frames and put them in the freezer to kill the larvae, and substituted clean frames.

We kept going. All I wanted to do was to keep this hive alive through the winter.  It was important to me. I was a husband. I was husbanding. I was helping matriarchy survive.

By 6 weeks, East Egg was assaulted by robbing bees. Strong hives will rob other hives. They will send great numbers of bees to a vulnerable hive and rob it of its honey. And oftentimes, the robbing bees will kill the bees inside the hive. I imagine East Egg did this last winter to other hives.

There was a cloud of bees above East Egg–I wondered if it was some sort of odd swarm. I didn’t think of robbing, because I’m pretty diligent about keeping a robbing screen (it keeps outsider bees from going in the hive, while allowing the home bees to go in and out freely) on my hives. Out of curiosity, I rushed outside in a bee suit. Despite the robbing screen, the hive got robbed out through a tiny notch in the inner hive cover. I hadn’t even considered that notch. It was a tiny notch.

And there, on the ground, was a small pile of bees. Inside that pile: a new queen.

East Egg had managed to make a new queen–had managed to break laying worker. As a beekeeper, I learned that persistence can pay off. That laying worker might take 6 weeks to suppress. That an additional hive is of great help. That bees need community. That a notched inner hive in Berkeley is a dangerous thing.

As a beekeeper–or husband of bees, I’m trying to unravel this mystery. I refrained from talking about East Egg all season, because I felt I had let down those bees. I felt I had been a bad husband. But in the end, I never left them. And they never left me. They fought until the end. And so did I.

The top picture–is a picture of the virgin queen. She’s tinier than a mated queen. She was the last one standing, because the female workers protected her, clustered around her. I’m standing too, because of all the women in my life.

The Generosity of Gardeners

I love honor system farm stands.

An honor stand is an unmanned fruit and vegetable stand laden with fresh local produce, often from a nearby farm. There is a scale, a pen, and an empty notebook in which you write down what you take and the total you owe. And there is a lockbox (often bolted to the stand) into which you put your cash.

An honor stand can be located in a commercial district within a small park, like Table Top Farm’s stand in Point Reyes. Or it can reside by the side of a highway like Little Wing Farm’s stand as you see here. It looks like a beautiful diorama.

They are a temple to those who love produce and fresh ingredients 24 hours, 7 days a week–and it is also a temple to the generosity and integrity of those who love produce and farm ingredients. I’m not sure this could be done with other products. Copper piping? I am guessing stolen and sold. Nails? I am guessing stolen and possibly thrown on the road. Cars? no way. Televisions? Double no way. But there is something about plants.

This past weekend, we happened to be in West Marin to visit a new friend and his wife. On the way home, we pulled off the road to visit the Honor Stand. We sent up a huge dust cloud, and as we stayed inside the car waiting for it to settle down, our anticipation grew as we eyed the dollhouse of a farm stand from the car windows.

We bounded toward the stand. My daughter picked out a dahlia bouquet garnished with perilla leaves, as well as squash and basil. We wrote down our totals. And I put the appropriate amount of cash into the cash box. It was–delightful.

We whispered while choosing our goods as if in a library, another exercise in honor.

The minty-basil smell of the perilla accompanied us all the way home from our drive to West Marin.

It was a day of generosity–punctuated by that honor stand.

We had gone to visit a new friend in Inverness. Our new friends have a marvelous garden. P and I were enthralled. We got to meet their tiny ducks (did you know there is such a thing as tiny ducks)? We also met their miniature parrot (I just realized there is a theme here of undersized birds) who does amazing tricks. Charlie the Parrotlet is even on instagram if you want to see what we saw.

Our friends opened us with open arms and warmth. They’d left berries on the raspberries for days so P could thrill in picking them and eating them off the branches. P also picked pea pods, shelled them, and fed them to one of the ducks–a duck who is particularly fond of peas. We visited a 400+ year old buckeye tree.

We brought fresh eggs from our chickens as a hostess gift. But–oh my goodness, we went home with our arms full of various garden products. We didn’t expect that. And of course, we were unable to refuse.

It’s a general pattern that when we visit our friends’ gardens, we bring something home, whether it is cuttings to grow or seeds or fruit or a quart of goat milk or a pint of honey. We never expect to bring things home–it just happens. And we try to bring something to them, as well–we have eggs and honey and cuttings and fruit to share as well. It is an amazing exchange of generosity and foresight.

Recently, as we struggled under the weight of succulent cuttings from a gardening neighbor, her husband noted, “I haven’t observed such generosity in other hobbies. I’m an art collector, and we share nothing.”

Plants cannot survive solo. They have to pollinate and reproduce. And there’s no loss (only gain) in ensuring others have plants you love. It’s true–there is generosity among gardeners.

This post incidentally, is also about making friends. About the generosity of extending friendship. I haven’t made very many new friends as of late. I have been consistently disappointed and hurt by the world and it makes me cozy up in my house. This past week has given me hope. I met these new friends at their home, their garden, and they were so sweet and big hearted and humorous and kind to us. If I were a different kind of person, I would have wept.

In the same week–I met another person, someone I’d met via the internet. He was friendly and gregarious and (again this word) generous–so much so that it made my cynical heart suspicious and whisper, “Are you for real?” But you know–there is no reward without risk. And I met him in real life. (My hobbit soul felt very adventurous this past week) .  Over the course of dinner with him and his friends, it became clear that he is truly that nice person.

And I felt ashamed for feeling so wary–I thought about how I have closed ranks in recent years. And I wondered if that was truly the best thing to do.

But mostly, I was happy to find good people. That there are more out there.

(Edison Collier fountain pen with a stub nib. Ink is Pilot Iroshizuku’s ku-jaku).

On Watching Fresh Off the Boat With My Man

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I’ve always always ALWAYS wanted to write about a TV show. Like, for forever.

And so deep gratitude to Fresh Off the Boat for inspiring me to do so, and to BuzzFeed for the opportunity.

Also, thank you to my boyfriend who watched the show with me, and who was completely okay about being part of this essay on watching Fresh Off the Boat with my (white) boyfriend. For the record, I love the show. It addresses serious matters through humor–and I hope I was able to make serious points through humorous writing, too.

BuzzFeed has amazing editors–this was my second time working with them, and I’m always impressed by the editorial staff and the editorial work they do there. I know that BuzzFeed is best known for their listicles, but they’ve got good writers and good writing over there. Big thanks to BuzzFeed Editor Sandra Allen (who worked with me on my life changing stroke essay for BuzzFeed) for being an always-supportive contact (and now friend), and major thanks to Doree Shafrir for being a good editor to me on the piece.

Update:
I DIE: EDDIE HUANG HIMSELF JUST TWEETED ME AND SAID HE LOVED THE ARTICLE. And that O should buy the book. (Well, we should all buy and read his book)
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